Chronic Depression

I'm sleepless almost every night. Good and bad thoughts keep popping into my head. The siege of insomnia debilitated me completely and makes me a snorer. It's been for a few months since I have a good peaceful sleep. I need to learn how to handle depression. Last year 2006, I went to school not more than 3 days a week. I didn't even go for my O Level preliminary examination. Things get better in the beginning of 2007. However at the end of 2007, I got into depression state again. I'm truely sorry if you find me irresponsible or isolating myself. Please understand it my friends =) Depression is very destructive. Look what I have listed down.

When depressed, I experience:

01) a loss of enthusiasm for life.

02) a lack of energy for self-growth.

03) confusion as to what is the meaning of life for me.

04) a blue funk.

05)a lack of excitement or appreciation for my accomplishments in life.

06)lethargy, tiredness, and exhaustion.

07)an inordinate desire to sleep.

08)a flat emotional affect.

09)boredom with my life, job, family, friends.

10)the absence of spontaneity.

11)a lack of desire to keep on keeping on.

12)the desire to run away or end it all.

13)the feeling that I am only an observer of life and not involved in it.

14)a sense of living in slow motion.

15)tearfulness and weeping for no apparent reason.

16)loneliness, isolation, a lack of being connected to the others in my life.

17)the feeling that the world would be better off if I no longer existed

18)apathy, discontent, and a hollow feeling regarding my day to day existence.

19)ignoring my creativity, imagination, and ingenuity in facing my problems.

20)procrastination, feeling overwhelmed by my responsibilities, duties, and tasks.

This list can still go on but the Good News is that I'm going to overcome this depression.

"A champion is not one who doesn't fail. A champion is one who doesn't quit!"

Reiteration works?

It was another presentation. I remembered 9months back I got a presentation about -Communication Skill. Standing in front of the class presenting my work, I felt nervous and my hands was trembling. Some of the classmates saw that and began to laugh. Phew, still made it through.

This time, I reiterated to myself that I'm not going to be worry. I'm not going to worry and I'm not going to step back. Guess what, when I stepped into the classroom I greeted the lecturer (Avinash) loudly,"Good Afternoon". This is a way to calm my nervousness and (Gerald, Bao Lin and I) discuss for another one minute before we headed to the front and present our work.

Half way through my presentation, I started to get nervous. I swallowed my saliva and continue to present. After the presentation, the lecturer point out the good point in us. He said we are bold.

Conclusion: To overcome your nervousness, the 2 methods are
1. Reiterate words that build your confidence.
2. Drink your saliva. Nah, just kidding.

After this, I went to gym with Poh Liang. We reached gym at 5pm and left at 6.15pm. I found out that i can do 3 chin-ups in one row =) Keep it up. This time, Poh Liang wasn't slacking in the gym. Haha . . . On the way to Causeway Point, we are talking about icy soft drink. When you drink it, it flows down to your throat and ahhhh . . .Refresh. Rejuvenate. Revive. Check this out: Average maximum temperature for 2007 was 28.6 degrees. Hence, Icy soft drink is needed to survive!

Had Long John Silvers' at Causeway Point and me upsize the drink. After I finished my dinner, Poh Liang went back home to have his Mee Hoon Keuh. I went back home too ^_^

Bye Bye ! N04

Here's the dialogue

Yu Bing: Are you sleeping?

Wen Jie: No

Yu Bing: Can you go over to Bedok and help Jeslyn start from this coming week?

Wen Jie: Sure ! Is it permanently ?

Yu Bing: Yes

Wen Jie: Ok

I'm in N04 almost 2 years since I started joining Jams Church and now I'm transferred to E02. From Sembawang to Bedok ! Haha. . . that's a challenge for me. I have to wake up at 7.15 a.m. Take train from khatib all the way to Bedok would take about 45 minutes.

Bye Yu Bing !
Bye Kee Wei !
Bye Mynar !
Bye Sandra !

Do you feel Eerie ?

I skipped class today. Again and again and again. Stress . . . What's wrong with me ? I lost my focus ! Anyway, I'm feeling quite bored and decided to surf the net. Yes, today topic is about something spooky.


WARNING: (Viewer Discretion Is Advised)


The following contents are explicit of mysterious images and story. Children under the age of 12 are advised to shut down the computer immediately. Hee..



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Lady without a feet. Cool huh.. She floats
















Oh my ! What's that in the doorway.

















Human or something ?








Next time do smile

Does he need to pay?

Have you ever seen such thing ? I once saw it personally. It was 7 to 8 years ago when I'm still in Primary school. My friend Juen Leong who was standing beside me saw it too. Just like the second image except the ghostly figure I saw was totally black and not translucent at all. Perhaps it was from Bangladesh. LOL, It

looks like a human-shadow figure and have a pair of red dull eyes. Folding his arms and I

would say that he looks good with his spiky hair. Scary ? No, not at all because it floats passed us within a second. Haha . . . What about UFO ? I don't believe it.

Do tag my tag box if you have such a "horror" experience.

Share it =)

My Goal in 2008 :D

Guess what, I told myself to learn English well. I listed down this as one my goal. I have to learn three new words every week :D I'm always sentimentless towards learning English. I Still remembered vividly that during my primary one, I'm exposed to noun, verb, adjective, pronoun etc. One of my favourite was learning "A.E.I.O.U" as it was quite easy. I hate spelling; learning new words were not my intention. My father had to cane me leaving me no choice but to learn.

I'm facing a serious consequence right now for using too many f*** words in the past. Lacking of vocabulary is one BIG problem. There will be time I don't know how to express my feeling.

I'm really wondering why some people can speak English so well. I'm neither good in Chinese nor English. What ? I'm having a negative mindset ? Then ...

CHECK THIS OUT

D aring

A ct upon God's word

N ever give up

I mpress

E ngage the culture

L earn new things

I'm sure 2008 will be the best year yet for me and my friends ! I will do my part to be committed to my goals. God will do the rest =)

Happy New Year !

It was such a tedious and fun day for me. My friends (Poh Liang, Huan Yun, Shu Ming) and I went out for count down at Orchard. This was my very first time welcoming a New Year. Wooow... Didn't see Huan Yun for quite sometime. He is now much muscular. How come? This freak went to gym 3 times a week!

We went to Long John Silver's to have our dinner and later we felt that Orchard don't have any New Year ambiances. We decided to head down to Esplanade which is the focal point where there will be fireworks display. It was a long journey from Orchard to Esplanade. Upon reaching City Hall, we can see thousands of people. Arghhh... We quickly walked to Esplanade and when we reached there, a lot of people cram onto vantage points. We can't move in even though Esplanade is just right before us. Poh Liang's cousin, Ah Bao and his group of friends made it to the Esplanade as they came much earlier than us. While walking, Shu Ming told us that an auntie kept pointing a finger on his back. Not just pointing but there was a physical contact. LOL ... He scolded that auntie.
At 12am, a bright laser light outshining in the darkness preceded the eagerly anticipated pyrotechnic show. The highlight lasted around 6-8 minutes. People were screaming and some even clapping. After the show, we rushed back to City Hall MRT station. We grabbed some drinks in the StarBucks to quench our thirst before we took the train. I'm back home at 1.35 am :)